Our life is a prison of our own making when our positivity comes from focusing on all the things we can’t and shouldn’t do in relation to others, instead of everything we can and are doing for ourselves
There are two types of empaths…
One easily identifies, has the ability to move through, and overcomes situations where everything and everyone seems like an attack on who they are, what they believe, and how they respond in life without it breaking them. The other has not yet discovered how to move out of the feeling of being a victim to it all of it, which is a very valid response [suffering with the ones who suffer] when we first realize we are empaths, or until we realize it.
Empaths deal with so many emotions, that we drown in them if we cannot see them for what they are and allow ourselves to move through and with them.
Being sensitive is never a curse, having our abilities is never a curse… our inability to mature in our abilities is the curse.
One huge part of our maturity is gaining control over our weakness in regards to suffering. There is suffering everywhere, but it’s not in our nature to stand idly by and watch, nor is absorbing all of the disturbances something that is easy to deal with, but we must.
Desensitization to the things that disturb us the most is very important to push through because it is one of the only ways we can push ourselves out of victimhood, and into our true power. Desensitization will not make you any less of an empath, fearing something will. The goal is fearlessness that has merged with ultimate love and the power to heal.
We have to realize that fearlessness about things isn’t insensitivity or callousness, it’s courage to face life. There is no way I would ask advice, or get healing, from someone who had no confidence in themselves… would you?
It will be difficult at first, but you should watch, read or encounter, as many uncomfortable things as you can to take the shock out of it so that it has no more hold over debilitating you again. If we don’t, we will be victims our entire lives and tragically ineffective in fulfilling our purpose.
The process of desensitizing, in a controlled environment and with preparedness, moves empaths out of the traps of feeling hopeless, despondent, and powerless. Once you can master controlling when you see the things that disturb you and how you can work with your feelings about it, doubt and fear will be replaced with empowerment to handle it when it comes up again, but it’s an ongoing process to work on until it catches something inside of you and takes on it’s own power from there to keep you where you need to be… which ultimately in control of yourself, your environment and any variables that try and change it.
In 2014 or 2015 I came across a guy that I’d made a soul contract with but didn’t know at the time, all I knew was that I favored him. The night we met, I had a glass of wine and he was having a lot of whatever he was drinking. I’m low-key and he was the opposite, it was a bit exciting. His behavior was a bit off, but I had never seen anything like this so I wasn’t sure what was happening enough to identify it. I was at a point in my life where I was ready for what I was ready for and something was working with this guy that night. He later told me he was an alcoholic.
It was a fast and intense romance the first month, but the moment he said he wanted to marry and take care of me, I knew all of this was about him, not us. Not only that, but it’s such a turn-off when a guy [confident and convinced in his acting abilities] says, “I want to marry you and have a life with you” without a ring or a clue who they are talking to. That is usually where it ends and I was going to walk away, but something told me I needed to go with it. I was like, okay, I have no idea what alcoholism is about, let’s see where this goes.
I ended up seeing psychological issues with my roommates, and it was threatening my safety, so this guy offered to move in together… I agreed despite the fact that he was convinced that he was going to make all my dreams come true, so I let his fantasy play out while I just followed my intuition to stay with him. I wasn’t there to hurt him, but I wasn’t there to enable him either, and I made it clear before I moved in that whatever issues he had with his drinking were his, not mine. It actually didn’t bother me that he drank all the time, I am pretty independent and liked the company without the feeling of being smothered.
There were times I needed him so much, but this wasn’t about me, and anytime I tried to make it about me, I wished I hadn’t. I decided to practice, over and over getting disappointed and hurt by this person until I cried. Honestly, I wasn’t there to simply be abused, but I don’t know why other than letting go of outcomes I guess. I did not want to do this over again at a later time, so this was happening.
I was with this person for 3 months and it was over, finally. Someone reading this my think that 3 months isn’t a long time, but it is when you lived with an abusive mother and sister who hated you on a daily basis for 18 years, subsequently until you were 37, and you thought you had finally gotten out of that. It also may sound as thought this person meant nothing to me, but it’s not true, I cared deeply for him. It was just so painful to stand by while someone put themselves through this pain and all you can do is watch.
The only healthy thing I was able to take away from it was when he once said that I needed to re-write my story and let go of my past. He also said I was esoteric.
Initially, I equated re-writing my life with running from/escaping it, but it’s so far from the truth. Until I could break away from everything I had known, I couldn’t explore my unknown which is where I was all along, waiting to be discovered.
A re-write is erasing everything that doesn’t serve the person you are, or want to be. A lot of times we need to add in things that we wish would’ve happened and didn’t. It’s not lying, it’s creating a new version of yourself that those that were supposed to love most should’ve told you about yourself and didn’t. I remember thinking that, if I ever had a child, I would tell her who she was before anyone else did. And she would be able to fly and dream and love and she was this superhero who could change the world.
Your story is, and can be, anything. And when you finish writing it, adding to it, editing it, go to bed at night and press play. Make it truly real for you. Do this over and over until you’ve also rewired your neurological maps and pathways to this outcome as well.
A study was done to see how easily influenced people really are in conforming to their environment. The stage was set by placing a guy in a wait room where people came and went for auditions. Each time a monitor would ding, his job would be to stand up and then sit back down [no eye contact and no talking], to see if another would do it. It only took seeing this guy do it once before they began doing it themselves, and no one questioned anything. The guy who staged this eventually left, and the person continued doing it while others came in, and it caught on after the first time, and still, no one questioned anything.
Unless you are thinking for yourself and understand that there aren’t consequences for doing so, you have a handler and your mind is not your own. What we think are “consequences” doesn’t even exist in the bigger scheme of things. It only exists in the 3d level, where everyone is a drone and time means everything to the meaning of their day – everything in their life is dictated by times they have to be somewhere and accomplish something in. Military, government, corporate jobs are all examples of drone work. Clock in, clock out, don’t ask questions.
We’ve all seen people controlled by others, it’s pretty common because we’ve all [at one point or another] given up our own right to be an individual for the sake of income or acceptance. There comes a point in time where you will question everything about this [hopefully], and begin to understand that doing what you want, when you want to do it, brings so much more freedom and you move out of the way of answering to anyone for anything. And when you get the hang of that, you move up another level and then another. It’s called personal mastery, because you can’t move up until you’ve mastered where you are. The ultimate goal is to rule your life independently of any outside influence, while working collectively towards accomplishing what you came here to do.
I was so inspired to read that the women in France were going on strike until they received the same income as men for the same jobs. While it’s not the feminine aspect that makes me proud, it’s the fact that an entire group of people banned together for what they believed was worth holding out for, and gaining leverage to redefine something that was no longer working for them, and fear was not an option.
If all of us banned together and stopped working in order to pursue our dreams instead, it would put us at a tremendous advantage to call the shots and define what our lives will be like and what is truly important in life. Imagine if we banned together and relied on ingenuity to meet the needs of others instead of what we are doing now…
Working for any company at this point in time is exactly what having a handler is representative of. Working for others goes against our very human nature to help and Love by design.
If I could, I’d use the technique I did this morning [permanent magnetic heart for the ferromagnetic moments in our lives blog] to pull all of our time lines together and attract the very moment when we get this concept, and have it happen simultaneously now… and then grab the popcorn.
There’s not enough coffee right now…
Why is the largest cup that Dazbog offers 16 oz [it is the best coffee]? We commit to so many things in our day that are vastly less healthy, is it so much to ask for a Big Gulp coffee…
The matter at hand……
I’m going to experiment with something. Right now, I’ve created a permanent magnetic heart that can pull together all of the ferromagnetic moments in my life where I am fully immersed in assertive gentleness, or patience, or strength, or temperance and stability [while submerged in Love].
I’ve pulled the string of time into a vertex at my heart and watched all of those moments shoot towards me and I hold them there.
While I was pinning the string, a loop came out. The loop didn’t rotate, but was stationary. I want to say that the words revolved in the thread of the loop, but I’m pretty sure they didn’t and my mind was compensating for what it thought should happen and the only way it could explain the word “loop”.
All in all, the experiment was totally worth it. I felt all of what I could at once and I got to flex my scientific muscle with what I know, and what I want to create and know.
Where my persona is today…
There are so many species of beings out there… star seeds, fae, nymphs, humans, etc., so we will have differences in some of our experiences, but merge in others. Since our bodies are these manifestations of our higher selves, we should recognize and connect to our souls and allow it to accomplish unity and purpose within us.
What I mean by “let it do what it needs to do” is, anytime we need to express something, we should just do it, but with fun and joy. Sometimes my body wants me to wave my arms or twist, so I do and it moves stagnant energy I didn’t know I had and I’m happy. If we fight ourselves we accomplish nothing. Doing simple things that your body asks will make it easier to hear your soul ask you to do things in order to work out your karma, heal or grow. If we deny these things about ourselves, we backlog our own growth and understanding of how things truly are. We deny ourselves truth.
I’ve written about where all of our energy and creativity lies, and that’s at the source of who we are… the seat of our soul/higher selves. Our source is our busy little workshop that makes everything we see possible. Our battles are worked out in the shop, not in our daily/waking lives. Our souls have planned out our day and when we resist the things that happens in it, all we do is steal energy from our source and begin wearing ourselves out. That’s why we are so tired all the time and we can’t change our lives that way.
The situations we face during the day were created specifically for you and no one else. Everything was created beforehand in your workshop and is perfectly timed and we see the right outcome if we stick to the plan. If we ever want to change what we see, it begins with our thoughts and our beliefs on the matter that then goes to the drawing board of our workshop and is hashed out from there. A woman today bought a scale that measures weight and said she’s thinking skinny, or something to that effect. A scale is only going to confirm what we are already thinking and believe about ourselves… “we are overweight and need to lose weight” and that is what it represents. It’s the thoughts that lead up to that, the thoughts that I chose that begin to awaken my consciousness about things. These thoughts could look like this… “I use way too many disposable things [coffee cups, tissue], I should find a way to use a handkerchief instead [or a washable travel cup]”. That leads me to feeling better about who I am, so I begin to understand that certain foods aren’t helping me feel good about myself, so I change how I look at food, and my garbage, and then it just grows from there and all of a sudden, my whole lifestyle has changed for the better. That is such a leap from buying a scale to get skinny, because life is a lifestyle, not a short-term fix or goal.
Waking up each day is my soul resetting my fuckups and hoping I get it right today. Everything is planned out, I just need to trust that everything’s okay and choose peace and harmony with it. There is nothing I need to fight for, I just need to be available and work with my soul to accomplish what it’s telling me to do at that time it tells me to do it. Just go about my day and be available.
When my soul says, “You should do that 15 minute yoga thing you did the other day when you get home tonight”, and if I go home and do it, bam, accomplished. When it says, “Hey, instead of being afraid of your anger right now, why don’t you let it go with them and take this to your desk and let’s square this away together”. Accomplished, done. It takes less effort, time and energy to work together, than to fight. I believe that there is more that is worth surrendering for than fighting for. Every time I chose to fight myself, it gets put back on the drawing board to deal with over and over.
My focus in life isn’t anything more than this. It’s just today… and it’s just this moment.
It’s a beautifully orchestrated piece if we can flow with the music of our life and not feel guilty about it. Anytime we feel fear, our soul will give us the answer if we ask.