Working out your own salvation…

As a kid, I was restricted from thinking for myself or behaviors that were not conducive to my mothers rules and limitations. I was punished for everything, so I vowed that I would be perfect in thoughts words and actions…

I had a breakdown 3 years ago and had a stroke that changed my life and everything I thought I knew about it was no longer okay anymore. I’d locked myself away from others to keep up the facade that I was still perfect, so I had no meaningful relationships and no family because they were septic.

How was I to work out my salvation without all of my core issues destroying others in the process. I began by giving myself permission to fantasize and dream of things that I wasn’t allowed to do in “real life”. I laid down in bed, and for hours, I lived the life that I wasn’t able to live – a life I always wanted. Nothing was off limits and there were no rules. I did this for over a year and, where I was a year later was a very different place than where I started. My beginning fantasies were selfish and needy – revealing my true nature and deepest fears, but it was mine to indulge in. The storyline was ever evolving because I tried out so many scenarios, family, no family, husband, single, geneticist, assassin, prestigious, mundane, intelligent, average… and the more I spent doing this, the more I worked out my own salvation and accellerated growth and maturity without hurting anyone or making lasting mistakes… It was karma giving me a chance to make amends without negative consequences.

The goal is to evolve and mature, not stay looped in our immaturity. The goal is to do what you’ve not allowed yourself to do before and work out what is spiritually beneficial or not for yourself. I started out doing this 3 hours a day, some days 8 hours. If you think that you don’t devote as much time yourself already to making yourself miserable, then it’s your issue, not mine. Begin using your misery programming for good, to benefit growth and use your imagination constructively.

Pair this daydreaming with Mike Dooley’s “Manifesting Change” and in a years time, you will not recognize yourself. There is a right amount of time to devote to this aspect of spiritual growth and maturity, listen to your body to tell you when it’s time to move to another stage of development and move. Until then, work out your own salvation through your fantasies and begin to feel what it’s like to create your life the way you want it [flex your create muscle] so that, when the time comes, you can do it confidently to change what is no longer working [work, love life, marrage, family, etc.].

One imprtant thing is, you can change your entire life without leaving your current circumstances. This isn’t about esaping the choices you’ve made, it’s about re-creating your reality with what you have. If things are toxic, that’s when you cut it off and leave it.

Dick Sutphen is a great authority on how to determine if you should work on it or go. His work, “Master of Life” is a true valu to anyone at any place in their life.


Feeling Stuck…

When you feel stuck, it’s likely because our thoughts are on a loop, a loop of negativity. Sometimes you can do a forward thinking exercise and think positively until your energy reconfigures and breaks through, but for those of us that feel intensely, more needs to be done from a depth that others do not understand.

Feelings of wanting to die, intense aloneness and hopelessness are simply parts of us trying to integrate. We tend to ignore our bodies, so in order to get our attention, we experience depths of darkness that the world could not survive, but we [despite our best effort] suffer and survive again and again until we are worn down to nothing.

We are in a time where we will not reincarnate with a new identity anymore. You reincarnate with your known identity, who you are now, and it is subtle if you aren’t looking for it. When we are purposeful in creating a way out for ourselves, we think we have failed, but we didn’t fail. We simply reincarnated to continue the work, and it only gets worse if we don’t understand this. The cycle of trying to escape has to end and we must run towards the hurt and pain and deal with it.

What we need to understand is, the dark place we go is not devoid of life and it is not there to punish us. This dark and scary place that we can’t control sinking into is asking us to embrace and love it again. A long time ago, we locked it away and vowed never to visit again. This is an imprisonment of who we are, so it’s no wonder we feel the way we do – intense isolation/hurt/rejection. Instead of running or denying it, go there on your own terms and unlock the doors and welcome home every part of your soul that you banished. Love and accept these parts of you again and feel the hurt that you caused them and make amends. Take as long as you need to do this. Once we can feel all its darkness and be okay with it, it loses its power and we don’t have to go back down there again because those aspects are now a part of you. For some, healing is instantaneous, others it takes time.

Living a life without depression, suicide and extreme negative emotions all hinge on freeing what’s down there… and it’s the child that was raped, tortured and told they should be ashamed of who they truly are, or it could simply be other parts of you that you rejected and neglected for some other reason. Locking parts of you away is called splitting your personality. This means you are not whole, and when you aren’t whole, you experience these strange “not myself” moments [a.k.a. “I feel crazy” “I’m losing my grip”] that become to scary to acknowledge that they exist. These places need you to mother and nurture them so that they can mature with you and become a part of completing you. That void that you feel others can’t and won’t give you will end when you integrate the parts of yourself you rejected. Most cannot be whole, but integration is the next best thing to health and balance.

Get to know yourself so that you can identify when you are communing with parts of you, or if there is an intruder. I miss playing the piano… that is a part of you. I’m stupid and should give up, this is too hard… this is an intruder. I want to go running again… this is part of you. I have money, I will buy ________… this is an intruder. Your nature is not to sabotage you, it is only the nature of parasites and intruders. You must understand this.

These intruders are handlers… they have been running you as you’ve consented to automatic responses, autopilot living and checking out of life from exhaustion. Nothing to be alarmed about if you plan on evicting these parasites from your body mind and spirit… but if you want to bury your head in the sand, they are a part of you and stick closer than you realize. Disassociation, rage, hate, etc., invites them in. Be mindful of what is eminating from your heart. Where your heart is, your thoughts and behaviors follow.

Parasites must be evicted before you can fully integrate and act sovereignly… we all go through the eviction process, it’s nothing to be ashamed or scared of… single soul occupancy is a must, and it ensures that you are living your life and not something else.

If you have questions about parasites/single soul occupancy, feeling hopeless/not wanting to live, how you can change what you don’t like about your life, loving yourself, etc., please feel free to email me. I’m not scared of darkness, I’ve been there myself and have found a way out. I am not a therapist and you will NOT get bullshit psychological methods on how to further deny what you are going through from me. We talk about it, feel it and experience it fully until the breakthrough happens and it’s cleared. I will tell you what you need to, or don’t want to, hear and it’s up to you to take control of your life or not. I care about your healing, not being popular. There is possibly nothing I haven’t heard before, and what you have experienced is your truth and we work with that. I will not ask you to deny what you feel or know about what you went through, the goal is clearing the block, not resisting it.

My email to seek guidance is

I look forward to helping.


Commanding Our Space

I’m doing this seminar on identifying core issues and healing them. It is really great work, but the group meetings each week require homework. I spent a year preparing to quit my government job to take 6 months off, and I promised myself that I would spend every moment being, not doing. No to-do lists, no obligations, no expectations of others… simply being, living in the moment and getting things done by this process alone. From May to September, just being.

The homework requires you to fabricate a to-do list and be held accountable each week to the group for it. You also have to quantify your progress – “I will exercise 3x a week for 30 minutes at a time” “I will do random acts of kindness 3x a week…”. Not very random if you’ve obligated yourself, but, I respect the process and it’s truly helpful if you’re still at the doing stage and not the being stage of life. It’s actually where I started out, so.

I tried to explain to a team leader that doing this work right now was not an option because it negates the goals I have already set for this time off. The only option I could think of was flowing with the group, or leaving at the end when they assembled, so I was trying to explain this and see what we should come up with because I really didn’t want to leave, I love the people there and they want me to be there too.

I don’t think the team leader was understanding because he was only seeing what I was saying as if I were coming from a place of fear [a core issue]. I didn’t know how many times I had to say that this was non-negotiable, I will not compromise the plans I have for myself just to add this to-do list that will do nothing but distract me from my real goal, but he couldn’t step away from the programs path to understand that what I was saying was bigger than the course material, which had no relevance in this case, and it was apparent that the opportunity to explain anything further had past – it was no up to me to make the decision solo. I have no issues making my own decisions about things, but this course was about me working with others and collaborating while still respecting my own needs and desires.

I knew that if I compromised what was right for me, even a little, to support a cause that is not my own for the sake of being on board, I would have lost everything I worked for in the last year and a half… I would not get another shot at taking 6 months off of work and doing what I am doing again, the time to do it right is now or I may as well still be working at my old job.

Lovingly commanding my space last night was part of my spiritual growth, not giving in to a to-do list. I want to encourage everyone to decide what is important, be intelliget in how to go about implementing the changes you’d like to see for yourself, magnify what makes you an individual, go out into the world with the strength of co-creating with what is only spiritually beneficial and command your sovereignty at all cost, and with a pure heart. Do your job in this manner, commune with your loved ones in this manner and above all, live your life wholly in this manner.

Unity in Individuality vs. the Imposter of Diversity

Beneath the surface of what we long to be [collectively], an imposter idea has been implanted and has replace what used to be real and fulfilling. When we give permission for any one or any thing to supersede our divine individuality and sovereignty, the perfection in our divine design will implode and we will experience misery.

Diversity in the work place is one such imposter that undermines our heart humility and degrades our personal empowerment in order to accoommodate another being as superior to you on a technicality.

It is not easy to fight your way back to your soul after awakening. But when we get there, the seat of our soul is all that matters because we understand that it is everything – it is a dauntless and fearless place of authority, sovereignty and freedom. Nothing else exists but pure creation, observing, being and healing when you’re there. Then you get to be a person of action, not doing, and it’s the most empowering thing to see everyone in the world running around doing things, and you know you never have to live in the slumber of never knowing how truly powerful you are ever again.

Never back down from your individuality because it is a spirit-led manifestation of life… knowing your truth and exercising it through your will, thoughts and actions… everything else is entropic.


Healing with the purpose of coexisting…

Those who are at war with others are not at peace with themselves – William Hazlit
The balance of life lies in the understanding that nature usurps all of what we’ve created for ourselves. Whether we chose to believe or not, we coexist with other dimensional beings… we feel and see them, there’s no denying this. And if we can acknowledge and respect them, we will coexist peacefully because we all have a purpose here.
In addition to this, the battles we face are within, not without, and our hearts are trying to heal and show us how. It just so happens that others reflect every aspect of who we are, and we are angry because we cannot [are blinded to], or chose not to [are too afraid to], take responsibility and accept that it’s okay that we are not perfect, or admit that we have lost our way. We must accept that everything is perfect the way it is, and that we are not alone. Shifting our focus to accepting these two concepts will begin the healing process.
One component to healing is giving up control of what you see and the manner it conducts itself [nature and other beings]. It’s basic knowledge that you can’t stop one thing unless you begin another, so let go of control and surrender to what is beneath the surface of what you see and join the flow. Just let go, and forget understanding ‘why’ for a while.
Another component is respecting all of life and finding a reverence in its purpose, which has nothing and everything to do with you.
And another is finding power within yourself again, remembering who you are, and ruling from within. Communication with life around us is non-verbal.
Another is calling a soul into your life [or your soul family] to help you heal where you cannot navigate for yourself. Your biological family is not equipped to do this. This tool is very powerful and you must call souls for the purpose you need them from a place of control, centerdness and positivity. If you make a soul call from a place of desperation or fear, you will attract things that thrive on keeping you there. You are responsible for whatever you call into your life, you have been, automatically, on a daily basis, so make it count for your good now that you know what is happening.
None of this can be accomplished until we each know what self-love is and feel it for ourselves above anyone else. Love is the foundation of everything this life is built upon and it keeps us safe.
It’s time we heal and remember who we truly are. A good place to start is by questioning everything, and then following the trail to get answers. Along the way, if you’re not falling in love with everything in your life, you’re doing it wrong.
~Looking Beneath the Surface Blog

Life is beauty and love. It’s a result of us taking those two things and creating our moments with them…

I’m watching a show and the character [a psychic] said, “… because I’m a fraud. People come to me looking for miracles and there are none to be had.”
This got me thinking… beneath the surface of this, there is tremendous truth in that. There are no miracles to be had in life. Synchronicities, healings, financial gain and anything we interpret as bringing us stability is created on our behalf, by our soul, or we create it here. It is intentional, not coincidental.
When we think there’s no way out unless a miracle comes our way, we devalue and perish in ourselves.
There are no miracles in life, only manifestations of the seeds we’ve planted or didn’t plant. Life, itself, is the product of us taking beauty and love and working that to make everything that is righteous, holy or pure [whichever word we choose to describe it].
We shouldn’t seek, or subscribe to the belief that miracles give our lives meaning because it is misleading that the answers lie outside of our own design. Those moments that make you laugh, those memories with the people you care about and everything else we handle throughout our entire day… it’s been us the whole time.

Baseline Nutritional Structure for Weaning off of Food – All Plant-Based [02 – Implementing Nutrients as a Sustainable Baselines for Spritual Empowerment]

Baseline Nutrition Structure for Weaning off of Food… All Plant-Based
It must be preficed that, before I can optimize the benefits of what I’m doing, I must address the parasites that are living in my body and have them evacuated so they aren’t stealing all of the nutrients.
I’m taking a treatment for 15 days to rid them, along side with what I’m already doing nutritionally. I feel tremendous control over myself, I don’t feel fat or frumpy or in a fog, and I just feel better overall – everything is outlined below, and with monthly cost…
The preliminary cost to begin is $300 the first month.
The monthly cost for to sustain this lifestyle is $260/month.
I was spending $15/day on healthy food that wasn’t doing anything for my mood or overall health. I will still be spending $450 a month just on groceries alone [add to that supplements, dessert, eating out, etc…. then medical bills to try and fix the damages of what you’re eating and drinking].20170113_145544
Temporary Prep Items: [first month only]
-ParaSmart [rids parasites, 15 day treatment]
-Sprouts Super Fiber Tabs – Psyllium Husks [you have to wean off food, so you will take this pill twice a day as you wean, and when you’re off solid food, you will take twice a day for 3 days afterwards to ensure solid food is evacuated and not absorbed back into the body]
-Avocado or Coconut Oil [goes in coffee or take with pills] to assist with the adjustment period of stomach acidity, if needed.
Long-Term Baseline Nutrition:
-GREEN SUPERFOOD: You will take this once every hour you are awake to keep a balance of nutrients in your body [eliminates and replaces hunger because your body has what it needs]. You can alter this to do 2 pills every 2 hours, but in the beginning, I needed it to be every hour until my body adjusted to constantly getting nutrients instead of food as filler. Remember, this is about balance, not implementing the same concept of “eating meals”. It isn’t that difficult because it is the same concept of cueing yourself to drink water often and go to the bathroom. Not such a leap. Sync those activities with when you take your pill, easy.
$40 = 15 days
Monthly Total $80
-MULTIVITAMIN: 1/day [coenzymated/women]
$15 = 30 days
Monthly Total $15
-PROTEIN: I have one scoop [twice a day] for the first month to give my body time to adjust, then afterwards, just one scoop a day…
in coffee or almond milk.
Vibrant Health Pro Matcha [protein + matcha tea – 22g Protein]
$40 = 15 day serving
Montly Total $80
or [I alternate]
Vibrant Health Maximum Vibrance [20g Protein]
[same regime, twice a day at first for a month, then once a day after]
$60 = 15 days
Monthly Total $120
-COFFEE $15/mo
Any of these can be mixed to create something sweet.
Real cherries [1cup has 19 carbs], but balance the carbs out with a lot of fat… olive oil, goat cheese, hazelnuts, coconut oil. 1 cup of pumpkin has 8 carbs… buy quality cacao 75% or more and mix any of these combinations with almond milk or coconut milk.
[This combination of baseline nutrition covers the following: nutrition, antioxidants, probiotics, fiber, health, digestion, circulation, immune support, detox, stress relief, energy, pH, life preservers, tonics, liver support skeletal support, adaptogens… all encompasing]
I don’t deny myself anything. If I feel I want something, I just weigh it with an old habit or if it’s a necessity. All of the thoughts I’ve had about wanting a certain food at a certiain time boils down to just habit and wanting to feel comforted. This is what needed to change.
While you should clear your body of food, you can supplement the weaning phase with pure forms of an avocado, boiled egg, chi seeds, olive oil or banana. The rest is resetting your cues to eat by drinking holistic tea, or coffee with protein in it/olive oil or water instead. If you feel you want to take a superfood green pill instead, feel free to do so. It’s not going to hurt you to do this, but remember, we need to get rid of these cues that make us panic because we aren’t eating. It’s reprogramming to accommodate our new nutritional needs. Like smoking or sweets, you must mentally train your mind to get control of itself.
The benefits I’m getting from this far outweigh the frumpy fog of being a zombie and lack of freedom I’ve experienced. I can now begin “moving” where I’m want and am open to good, clean, and rightious ways of thinking and manifesting.
It’s cognitive benefits are incredible and my abilities to protect myself are exponential. I found this out last night when I was with this guy who was trying to influence me for hours and it never affected me. I was completely safe until I chose to leave, and when I was good and ready to. I can’t describe it. It’s totally worth it and I’m staying with it.
We can only do our best…
If you choose to do this, but must eat at least once a day, it’s really all about how we see our lives and what we allow to control it. This regime works for me, I don’t work for it, if that makes sense, and that’s the goal with everything in our lives, nothing should be there that isn’t serving us, we should never work for things because we create everything. Going all the way and not eating isn’t for everyone, but honestly, it could be.
It’s all about our perceptions on breaking the illusions in our lives so we can become successful, free thinking, and let the proof speak for itself.
I personally don’t see how doing what everyone else is doing anymore is a benefit to any aspect of our lives, but nothing worth doing is popular with the masses. They take the easy way out all the time. Living with nutrients is insanely easier than dealing with food, any day, we just don’t know it.

Is eating food an illusional necessity? [01 – Implementing Nutrients as a Sustainable Baselines for Spritual Empowerment]

Is food really an illusional necessity, and can the necessity for food be nothing but a distraction?
Food has taken on a life of its own and is consuming our lives with worry, doubt and financial strain… couple it with medical expenses and immovability to be within a healthy weight range naturally and the cycle of it all does nothing but weaken our hope in something better.
Our entire perception on what food is and what it does needs a serious renovation, and it’s up to us to take control of our own health and well-being.
It’s everywhere that we aren’t getting enough nutrients but we are eating more and more of food. Everything that is readily available and within cost to most of society is indescribably toxic to our bodies and we don’t realize how low our vibrations run, or how dead we really are to the things we can truly do because our perception of food and all the things associated with it is keeping us there.
If this is indeed true, and I believe it is, I think an alternative method is in order, and it isn’t conventional, but neither is awakening and following your dreams. It’s par for the course, and if you’re willing to understand that our vibrations will remain always remain as limited and restricted as our thoughts dictate, our desires dictate, and what we put in our bodies dictate.
Right now, most of us are energy cows and we operate at a very low, zombie-like level. We go with the motions and don’t question anything, mostly because we don’t have the energy, clarity or ability to connect to our higher selves because we are full of toxins and lethargic in getting motivated to.
Food, this stuff that doesn’t have the capacity to meet a whole and balanced need, is percieved as a necessity to life, when the truth is, nutrients are the necessity to life. We are told that we have to have all of this food in a day, and that it’s still not enough, so we must supplement it with all of these other things as well. Not only do we pay for food, eat it and have to take nutritional supplements, we also must take more supplements to counteract what the food is doing negatively to our bodies.
I’m going to take a leap and say, “Put nutrients in your body, not food”. If we deal with the source, the nutrients themselves, we get it right and are done with it. No medical bills, no wasted food, no more toxins in our bodies. It’s optimal.
What I discovered last night, after thinking for a decade about it, is that it could be possible to sustain on plant-based vitamins, superfood greens, protein powder, and some other key players, in order to move out of being a slave to these so-called needs.
The idea that I’m proposing is that, by changing what we put into our bodies altogether, we will reduce the time it takes to heal [physically and spiritually] and streamline our journey to move forward with our abilities effortlessly, and with no lag due to outside influences. Time superceeds outside influences, but outside influences can negatively affect what we do while we are waiting.
In essence, it’s a process to further remove eating food [as we have come to know about it] and the unhealthy habits tied to so that it no longer negatively controls our moods, time, finances, and overall outlook on life. I truly believe that, by detoxing and redirecting our body’s proclivity to want the right things, it will be huge in moving forward with where we go next and open up so much more potential inside us.
I just began weaning off of food on Monday and following the regime discussed with a physician, so it will take time to scientifically provide evidence that what I’m replacing food with is going to be a sustainable and healthy means of accomplishing everything I’m setting out to do, but here’s the methodology on why I identified what’s going on, and why I needed to do this:
The concept that this entire experiment is based on consists of the scientific fact that when we are hungry, our body is asking for nutrients, not food. When we have the right nutrients, we will not feel hungry.
Food is not a nutrient, it is a composite of very little nutrients and a lot of other things [beneficial or not] that our bodies truly do not need to process through. I believe that this is why we have such a weight problem, along with the contributions our perception of our own bodies manifest.
If food had everything, why are we told that we still need vitamins and probiotics and this and that… it doesn’t seem to end and there’s not enough time in the day to meet the requirements with the lives that we live, so why is food taking over our lives like it is?
We are told that it’s normal and part of life…
Add to that the cravings, which are usually satisfied with more toxins that our body doesn’t need. In all honesty, cravings do not associate to food at all. When our bodies are getting the proper nutrients, we don’t experience cravings, and a cake or bagel has no pursuasion one way or another over you, the same as seeing a pen or a stapler would.
What you are feeling when you “crave” something is really an emotional or spiritual need that needs to be met. The word craving was designed as a mask for what is actually your body signalling [intuitively] that something has come up and needs to be resolved, not fed.
To go further, cravings aren’t really a thing, you should want or don’t want and be done with it. Another variance on the use of the word craving could mean that something is influencing you to want something you don’t need, usually something to avoid [situation, action]. With practice, you’ll know the difference in needing something because your body tells you so, or if you’re being influenced into thinking you need something.
When our nutritional needs are being met, these cravings [distractions] will dissapate and our intuition can begin to surface. This allows us to now resolve our needs appropriately, not feed them.
Think about things, don’t just go along with them… It’s good for marketers to sell the word “craving” in order to trigger and associate the need to hunt and gather for food with it, and that is what keeps your mind so primitive… word conditioning and associations that don’t exist, but we give power to. When our nutritional needs are being met, our body can begin to distinguish between whole and fake for intake and those things you no longer have a for, but we have to work with our bodies to do this.
Unless it’s your profession or hobby, how often do you think about eating, snacking, cooking, groceries and cravings? Answer, it’s a lot. So much so, that when you get to the point I’ve gotten over the last 3 days of going off of food, it has no more power over you and you can step back and see what it does to people. It alters our behavior drastically. I see it, and not only are the nutrients I’m taking freeing up all of my time, anytime there is food laying around, I don’t want it and I don’t desire it because it is a bit disgusting. It’s a perspective changer for sure, but I’m so glad I am doing it. After only 3 days, I feel like I can see differently already and my mood is pretty stable so far. I don’t wake up in pain with my shoulders or neck anymore and I sleep deeply at night with these nutrients in my system. I’m keeping a journal, so I’ll share my findings.
To continue, I believe that sugars and carbohydrates are directly connected to the sense of how we experience time throughout our day and whether it is on cue or lagging. Every time we have these poisons, it will alter our perception of time and the present in order to keep us focused on the past or future, so the precious time we do have is squandered – back to just being an energy cow, or a hamster running on a wheel. Being in the present is the only way we can accomplish everything. Healthy people have limiteless time to do things, unhealthy people can’t ever seem to accomplish anything, and instead, everything is compounded.
This is my intuitive view: while whole foodies see processed and fast food as a terrible thing to put in your body, I see most whole foods [especially meat] as a potential, spiritually, terrible thing to put in your bodies.
I base this on the instability of medical journals and what is good from one year to another. Everything shifts, everything is changing. There are no fixed variables because our mind creates it all and it’s as individual as we are, and it feels like everyone who talks about it can’t get a grasp on it anyway, but that’s another can entirely.
So, what I think is beneath the surface of all of this is an iceberg and it’s up to each persons interpretation of it, but here’s mine.
What I do know is, our bodies recognize plan-based substances and enzymes and break those down with no problem. Even at whole food stores, and especially at any other type of grocer, the food is processed with things that aren’t friendly to our bodies, and with the exchange that goes into getting a prodcut to you, it makes it easier [albeit unintentional sometimes] to introduce your body to any and everything.
Our bodies can’t process everything it’s introduced to, so it begins to store it as fat and you simply carry around all of these toxins. Some toxins/chemicals are evacuated, but a lot are retained. These toxins make us feel incredibly miserable and it infiltrates our outlook on life and our ability to deal with anything and fucks with our ability to manifest what we want because our baseline is misery, and how we feel is what and how we attract.
With all scientific experiments, adjustments will be made to things that aren’t healthy along the way, so I’ll keep you posted if you’re interested in what this is about, and making it your own. I think it would be beneficial to do this at all levels, but to each their own.
This lifestyle that I’ve adjusted to quite fast, actually, includes being mindful of what my body needs and listening to that, as well as cutting down/out the need for food by implementing and introducing only what my body needs through carefully planned out supplements for optimal nutrition, ingesting oils, apple cider vinegar, the occasional whole egg to balance out digestive acidity, and I will adjust the rest as I go along, but I have no real cravings or need to eat… just the occasional mental adjustments when I would routinely eat to rewire and I’m fine [I drink water instead and don’t train my mind to reject anything, just accept new ways of doing things]. I do drink a lot of water, holistic tea and coffee throughout the day to help with the oral fixation of things..
I don’t think I will go back to eating after what I know about the last 5 days and my body’s response to how healthy and spiritually grounded I feel, including my moods having been stabalized and my focus is clear. I’m excited about what will come of this with more time and adjustments to make it sustainable.
I didn’t want to talk about it at first, but there’s something to this, and it’s powerful beyond just our perception of food and eating, and I can’t wait to see what is going to come out of this.
Love, Life and Light.

An Empaths Journey out of Victimhood… Desensitization Training

There are two types of empaths

One easily identifies, has the ability to move through, and overcomes situations where everything and everyone seems like an attack on who they are, what they believe, and how they respond in life without it breaking them. The other has not yet discovered how to move out of the feeling of being a victim to it all of it, which is a very valid response [suffering with the ones who suffer] when we first realize we are empaths, or until we realize it.

Empaths deal with so many emotions, that we drown in them if we cannot see them for what they are and allow ourselves to move through and with them.

Being sensitive is never a curse, having our abilities is never a curse… our inability to mature in our abilities is the curse.

One huge part of our maturity is gaining control over our weakness in regards to suffering. There is suffering everywhere, but it’s not in our nature to stand idly by and watch, nor is absorbing all of the disturbances something that is easy to deal with, but we must.

Desensitization to the things that disturb us the most is very important to push through because it is one of the only ways we can push ourselves out of victimhood, and into our true power. Desensitization will not make you any less of an empath, fearing something will. The goal is fearlessness that has merged with ultimate love and the power to heal.

We have to realize that fearlessness about things isn’t insensitivity or callousness, it’s courage to face life. There is no way I would ask advice, or get healing, from someone who had no confidence in themselves… would you?

It will be difficult at first, but you should watch, read or encounter, as many uncomfortable things as you can to take the shock out of it so that it has no more hold over debilitating you again. If we don’t, we will be victims our entire lives and tragically ineffective in fulfilling our purpose.

The process of desensitizing, in a controlled environment and with preparedness, moves empaths out of the traps of feeling hopeless, despondent, and powerless. Once you can master controlling when you see the things that disturb you and how you can work with your feelings about it, doubt and fear will be replaced with empowerment to handle it when it comes up again, but it’s an ongoing process to work on until it catches something inside of you and takes on it’s own power from there to keep you where you need to be… which ultimately in control of yourself, your environment and any variables that try and change it.