I wanted to find a partner, so I found my way to online dating. Pictures were exchanged and he commented that I downplay myself by not wearing makeup. I could see his perspective and truthfully said that I don’t do things for anyone that would go against my natural state of how I chose to be. If I loved wearing makeup, that would be a different story. He said that, by not wearing makeup, it shows a lack of confidence and, America does see confidence in that way, it’s pretty pervasive to believe that if you don’t look, act or think the way others think you should, that you don’t love yourself. Since it’s the consensus of the masses, he isn’t incorrect; however, I also believe that neither am I for choosing who I want to be and being completely comfortable being wholesome and pure, rather than socially acceptable – my heart matters more. I take care of myself from the inside out, so I understand that this choice will be misinterpreted by just about everyone.
The bottom line was that he was operating from a place where confidence is interchangeable with insecurity. When that happens, it’s only negative if I allowed myself to be afraid of not being accepted and changed my behaviors out of guilt and fear of not being good enough. People aren’t bad or good, they are simply life lessons that show us who we truly are and how we really feel about ourselves. I chose love and truth to continue knowing that I trust myself as I am. I have nothing to prove to anyone. You are either you, or, you’re something else pretending to be you, a disguise of what you think you should be and not what you actually are. This is the true adversary. No other adversary, or devil, exists – just you being in denial of your true potential, your true nature and purpose. Nothing else matters, and when you choose to stop believing the lies, nothing else but your will exists, you then become the divine god you are and life transforms into all encompassing will of light or dark. The dark is just as important as the light, but the deceit is that the dark is a predator. Humans are not predators by design, we are light. The adversary is what transforms what should be light into predatorial. Don’t get caught up on the predator because it’s not what’s important at all. Knowing what the plan of that species is is the only importance. You must know your adversary, you must not become the adversary.
This adversary is the stuff of nightmares when we begin to see it for what it is. It doesn’t like to be exposed and will put up a fight. The adversary is covert, not in your face, hiding in plain sight. But we are perfect the way we are already, we just have to bring that to light. There’s nothing wrong with us, there’s nothing that needs to be controlled, only integrated and mastered.
There is room in your life for it or you. Where is your intent, where are you aligned? This is for you to discover. Law of attraction states that what we are aligned with is the impetus of our course in life. If we deny advocating for ourselves and removing the game from our lives, then we are aligned with our soul in its purest form – this is god – our consciousness [male], our subconscious [female] and our soul – this is the true trinity and the key to understanding the fall of man. If you are not aligned with truth, the trinity, then you are aligned with the impetus that destroys light and life. We do not call this darkness. Light and dark are sacred. It is simply the adversary.
Align with the adversary and you won’t feel like yourself, like something’s off – you begin to suffer by feeling confined or “blanketed” per se. Align with your truth feels like home… not “safe”, but like you are in your own skin and nothing can replicate that. Feeling safe is not the goal, feeling at home wherever you are -is. Once you are home, you can feel what it’s like to truly thrive, become empowered simply because you exist [not what you’ve accomplished or appear to be] and learn how to create by intelligent design instead of obligation to perform entertaining parlor tricks.
Our two choices are to be sovereign or be possessed of something else that will do what you refuse to do for yourself – direct your own life and become your purpose. You choose or don’t choose, but you cannot escape being a force of destruction when you refuse to choose.
Possession is not the exorcism in the movie, it is sleep and slumber of the camel spider until there’s nothing left. The journey is numbed suffering and pain with seemingly no way out – it’s global somnambulism. If you decide it’s too difficult, know that you leave no choice but to continue to be recycled over and over again to experience the same until you stop the pattern and stop the loop by refusing to be a host – a wayward shell.
We feel this, we know this is true, and we all are given the same opportunities to change it. All you need to realize is that you are sovereign, begin to pay attention to what is happening and educate yourself with what resonates deeply, not information that’s readily available to make you feel good and put you back to sleep. Don’t spin your wheels with distractions either. This journey will not make you “feel” safe for a while in the beginning – but you are safer than you’ve ever been because by law of attraction, benevolent beings will be called to support the light you are choosing to embody – you will need to learning how to live all over again, but it’s worth it. Begin to say no and begin to listen to your own body and intuition, it’s your only guide. Stop seeking divine help from others [psychics, aura readers] and stop paying for these services, we are all susceptible to manipulation, but the stronger and pure ones that are awake will wisely tell you that only you have the answer, because that’s the only way, no one can do it for you. Learn to observe and want to take your life back as if your life depended on it. Be open minded because the truth isn’t in magic or gaining power over the outside world, it is mastering the divinity of the power your soul.
The truth is, you are all alone in this fight and there isn’t anything, or anyone, waiting in the wings to save you. You fight alongside others, others don’t fight for you. You are supported alongside others who are doing what you are doing, but it’s a worthwhile struggle to FIND “the” fight and become part of a collective unit of oneness. You have to want it.
Your neural mapping keeps you in causal loops that you experience as imprisonment. Only you can fight your way out of it by remapping your perspective – remembering how you were as a child is key. Mapping that goes against everything in your biological being. Become the observer and remove yourself from the game. Be empowered, it’s not something you take from others.
Life is a flow, it’s synergy, not a struggle. There is no fate or destiny, only synchronicity.
There is no doing, only being. You are or you aren’t the adversary. You are you [your truth, which is the only truth], or you are the evil you experience in this world. When you are anything other than your deepest true expression, you are the adversary of you because you are saying/expressing how much you hate yourself. Because it is your will to hate you, hate will personify to destroy you, as you wish. This is why evil, lack, poverty and misery follow you all the days of your life.
Every time you choose to deny being your true self [meaning, denying yourself of doing what you really feel like doing, not what you should do to be acceptable] IN THE MOMENT you are in, you choose fear over truth and allow something other than you to take over, and it is nasty. You give your consent away to the “not you” to take control of your life and get upset at the resulting consequences and complain or blame something else. And because you don’t want to deal, because of your inaction to grab that opportunity to change the whole world by directing your own life by being the positive good in this world, you are contribution to the pollution…
Every decision there is to make for yourself is your birthright to enforce, regardless of social convention and rules. Instead, we’ve chosen not to decide and that sets into motion the consequences of your current reality – misery and suffering courtesy of you, and only you.
Universal law states that it must obey your will, even if that will is to destroy you, it’s the fundamental law of attraction and it will only honor your decisions. Your words hold no power over your will. Saying is equivalent to doing, it’s dead energy. Being is will. You only have to will it from the purity of being/expressing your own truth and the law will align to bring it into being, you co-create with natural law, not man-made.
I remember when I realized this. Irrational things were happening to my car – dings, scrapes. I had stumbled upon the realization that everything was part of me – I understood and faced my deepest fear that I was unstable and dangerous because I hated myself so much, so I was a threat to myself.
By admitting my deepest fear that I was dangerous, not the world, I felt a release of pressure from stuffing my feelings down about it and after letting it be a part of me that I now accepted as part of who I am, nothing else happened to my car or my things.
The world was no longer dangerous because I became safe. It was an immediate shift in consciousness because it was now who I was, not what I did. You cannot fake it.
Every time I’m not me, things around me become dangerous again, but as soon as I remember and express my truth to myself and others through self-love, everything aligns with being safe again.
I can be a force of my own good or sabotage everything. Every moment holds the opportunity to determine which outcome, every decision is the rutter. It’s too hard to try, it’s a radical acceptance of who you truly are, not what you can prove, you’ll never make it that way.
You can’t do good, you are good. You can’t do pure, you are pure. You can’t act kind, you are kind. If I could ask, never be nice again, be kind.
This disaster of a life is also the breadcrumbs, a path, to your own salvation. There is always a way out, but you have to direct your own life in order to find yourself. You are your divine path. There is no holy grail or crusade – it leads to nowhere. There is only the great work within you to discover what’s inside. Take your time.
You are the architect of unity within. You are the artist, the creator of beauty and life. If you lose your heart, you lose everything.